I Want a Bedroom Redesign

1189This has me thinking about moving my bed that way. Would I have more space or not? Hmmmm.

It’s complicated by the fact that my bedroom is also my home office and pretty much everything else except the kitchen and bathroom. Luckily the laundry isn’t in here too.

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Tickle: Are you Millionaire Material?

Tickle: Tests, Matchmaking and Social Networking: “Ever thought about buying an SUV and joining a tennis club? You should, because you were made for the elite. We can tell that you enjoy many of the finer things in life, but for some reason you just can’t make the leap to ‘millionaire material.’ Sure, that’s a step down from the top of the money pile, but it’s probably all for the best. Why? Perhaps because, when it comes down to it, you enjoy fun more than money. Cash is all well and good, and we can tell that you’re pretty good at saving your dough when you put your mind to it, but you’d rather spend time outdoors, hang out with friends, or plan your next big trip than drool over your bank balance. After all, what’s money for if you can’t enjoy it?”

Tonight there is a lottery draw with a prize of $30 million. I had to buy a ticket. Wouldn’t it make you always wonder if you never bought one? Sure you could write down some numbers and check them (or never) later. But, you might choose different numbers when you actually got a ticket. Or, worse, what if your numbers won but you didn’t make it offical? How would that feel? I don’t even want to comtemplate it.

So I bought four tickets. One for my Mom, her favourite numbers. Ticket two I phoned my nephew for his number picks. We like to get joint tickets now and then. If we win I’ve promised to share half of it with him. Of course, he doesn’t realize he is under age and thus… ineligible. Still, I’m not a complete bitch. I’d share, something, with him. 😉 The other two tickets were my own numbers. One were numbers I liked and the other just made a neat design on the ticket ballot. How do you pick numbers if you buy tickets?

Anyway, good luck to me (and to all of you should I not be the big winner).

First thing I want to do is buy a new car, one that doesn’t make bad noises. Then I could pay off everything and everyone. Not that I owe a lot. Compared to most people I know I am fricking debt free. But, it bugs me and I think about that a lot. It would be great to have it all gone, permanently and forever. After that I’d pick out a nice little house, a new computer system (plenty of computery good ness but not going overboard). Then, the big trip. Startinng with Russia, Europe and Australia. Extending to South America maybe a stop in Hong Kong (for personal reasons). Then back to my cosy little house to begin renovations. I want the bathroom to be amazing, the shower being the most important thing in that room. It will have so many jets of hot water shooting out you’ll think you’re in a pool, swimming. Next important rooms are the kitchen, the home office and the bedroom. Of third importance would be some kind of family room/ dining room option. Maybe a guest bedroom in case I feel like company. (Eventually I will, probably, though they can’t stay forever!). I want comfortable furniture made of good, solid wood and covered in denim or something vibrant and red. Wood floors with throw rugs, no damn ceramic tile anywhere! Ugh! Those are cold and they break everything that drops on them. Of course, while I was jaunting around the world the renovation crew would have put in a new furnace, electric system, water and roof, etc. All the necessary basics would be updated and improved. I’d never need to feel my house was like driving around in an old car waiting for it to die.

I’m not sure what kind of car I’d get. There are a few that come to mind. I like the new VW bugs, maybe a cheery yellow one or the orange would be nice. Today I saw another kind of car, midsized but very Mustang looking. Not that however, I think. Anyway, whatever car it would be new, mid-sized sedan type and good on gas. Most of all reliable, it will never break down or make rude noises. I will even consider hiring a full time car mechanic, gardener and butler to work around and keep everyting fixed and maintained. It is kind of nice to keep a man around the place. He could have a tidy little cottage somewhere on the grounds.

It would be so nice to win. Small chance of it happening, but someone is going to win. It could be me. Maybe that ticket I bought the nephew will have the lucky numbers.

Lame Pity Party, BYO… Something

It’s a nice day and people should be outside doing nice things. I’m here, sort of hiding and procrastinating, as per usual.

You can’t go back again and yet you can’t really get that far either. I’m living with my Mother. It’s not something I feel radiantly happy and proud about. It comes with a massive stigma to do with being a failure, not cutting it, etc. I’ll spare myself a few.

It really began for practical reasons. I had come back from the divorce, no job, no vehicle, all the money spent on moving. Of course, no kids and almost no debt helped too. (I’ve since become the sole support of an ancient relic with four wheels and a vast sucking thing also known as a department store credit card). At the time I was just glad to be on the north side of the border again. I found a car (the first was a grey and red, 93 Ford Tempo which did not leak gas, just ask the guy who sold it to me) then a job at Zellers in Aurora. I liked the job, it was simple and yet not boring. Minimal homework required, when I left for the day I was done for the day. Uniform was ok, no need for excessive clothes shopping and I could wear comfortable shoes, as long as they were black. I spent my working day walking around chatting up customers, walking miles down all the aisles. Not a problem, beat that as an exercise at work routine. No expensive gym membership required. The first day I was so dead tired I couldn’t stay awake long enough to finish a coffee at home. By the second week I was into it, I didn’t even have sore feet, much.

Anyway, I don’t know what would have happened if life had gone on in that steady direction. But, life is known for changes. My parents decided to move. Mom and I were looking at small, affordable (no mortgage) houses. Dad wanted something showy with the idea of having his home office there (he was a consulting engineer – Quoin Group). Since I was living pay cheque to pay cheque, keeping my Tempo road worthy and not much else, I moved with them.

We moved at the coldest time of the year, January. I got frost bite on two of my fingers where they touched the key as I started the car. (The car was having a rebellious stage then and only starting if the key was turned a certain way). Frost bite is not fun but I’m sure mine was mild on a scale of not bad to truly hideous.

After moving, I found the Zellers here was not really in need of an employee transferred from another store, but they were willing to stick me in. Only cashier was available, not my nice walking and talking job. At this point my parents were down south for the Winter and the Tempo decided it really had enough of this whole driving thing. I was house bound for a week while I tried to get the Tempo to reconsider it’s position about the driving issue. Even explaining that for a car that age the only option was work or death, didn’t help. Anyway, things resolved themselves more or less. I started working as a cashier. Canadian Tire fixed the Tempo but a day later when it was leaking coal-like fluid they politely suggested I retire the car. They gave me back $60 and change of the $300 and change repair bill I had just paid. I borrowed cars to get to work. I managed.

Then Dad died, at the end of May. I broke up with the boyfriend from BC. One of those things where the guy stops talking to you in hopes you will forget he exists if he is quiet enough. Why are they such weenies? If they just said it was over for whatever reasons that would be so much better. Why play hide and seek?

Anyway, when Dad died we had a memorial service, collected some money for planting red maple trees and used that to pay for some of his burial. Dad was self employed but seldom paid. He left the world and didn’t especially care about the mess behind him. His last words were, “Don’t bother.” Very, very, very, luckily my brother and sister had finally managed to get his taxes done before he died, just a few months before. They were so far behind it would be speaking ill of the dead to go into detail. Of course his estate consisted of credit card bills and a ton of papers, binders and a couple of drawing tables. Not much of use. My Mom gladly threw it all away, happy to finally get rid of all his pack rat collection. I’m not sure how much of that mountain of paper and binders and file folders and envelopes he ever used but it filled a shed at the back of the house here. I suppose we could have just burned the shed down with all that inside it, never thought of that at the time. It took days and days to get all of it gone. Too much paper to burn it all on the garden plot with the compost and such. We were lucky that the credit card companies ended up writing his account off. Mom had nothing extra to pay his debts with.

So, here we are, in the present. I’m still living with my Mother. The only difference is that we are both single now. Her a widow, me a divorced woman. We’re working together to keep things paid and she’s not so alone. Neither of us are clinging vines but it is nice to have someone around, sometimes. So, that’s why I live with my Mother. Sucky but true.

We are planning another move, to a smaller house without a mortgage this time. Just what we had wanted the last time before Dad decided he needed a showy place. I am not looking forward to another move. I feel like a vagabond, never really living anywhere. I have moved four times since the year 2000. Two of them included immigration to another country, just the US, but still, it did involve a lot of extremely aggravating paperwork.

Anyway, that’s about it. I live with my Mommy. She only drives me crazy when she reorganizes things for me. It’s not polite to tell your Mother to ‘back off’ though. I do miss having my own place. But, she goes down to Florida for the Winter, that’s my time to pretend I’m not a 40 year old adult living with her Mommy.