People are like leaves

How do trees feel standing out there all winter, barren of leaves? I seem to be the sort of person that gets dumped a lot, by everyone. Some day I will sort it all out. Doesn’t really seem to matter though. Get over it, learn to be alone cause life is long and comes to a sudden stop.

I wish I had more things to look forward to in my life. It just seems that one nephew and my Mother are not really enough to counter everything else.

Today I did laundry, actually got out there and went to the laundry mat, spent half of the money I have to wash clothes. Mainly work clothes for that hopeless, horrible job that doesn’t pay much of anything any more. I can’t even go out for coffee really. Sometimes I do, just cause there should be things in life like going out for coffee. What are you doing with your life if you just work and pay bills? If you can’t enjoy something, even something small…

It’s so cold tonight here. My hands are like blocks of ice. The MasterPainter has gotten inspired to actually get something painted. He has been working the last three nights on the big bedroom. So I am smelling and sleeping with paint fumes everyday and night. It’s giving me a headache. Not quite easy on the asthma either. Funny that he only paints when my brother kindly reminds him. Men only listen to men I guess. Women are just mindless, useless cattle.

I think I am a cash cow at the store. It seems they really are going out of their way to make customers hate us. Not only do we spam them determinely for credit cards but we have to make them wait while we do paperwork for each item that doesn’t scan or otherwise come up on the computer. We are not allowed to type in any more bar codes either. Much better for the inventory if we keep customers waiting while the service people hustle around to find another item which will scan, maybe. Anyway, on and on and on. The days just keep going through my life.

Tomorrow is St. Patrick’s Day. I always think of my Grandmother then. It’s a shame you can’t just get tired of your life and hand it over to someone else. Here Granny, come and finish this for me. What would she do I wonder? If she was not old (not too old anyway) and living in these times of computers and whatever else is so good about these days. I knew her when she was old and had been formed by her life. If she could go back and do things again who would she be? No one gets to find out. It’s a shame cause someone else could probably be doing a lot better with this life than I am.

I could save a bit more if I cancel the Internet connection. Now that I’m not writing for SK it really isn’t necessary. The phone could go too. I’d be able to afford gas for the car this month if I had known that earlier. Too late for this month. Likely my Mom would worry if she couldn’t at least send me an email to tell me how much she misses me and to remind me about watering plants, reminding Peter to paint, reminding me of all the bills and car licence renewals and etc endlessly. Next pay day is the 24th and I might have just enough on that cheque to pay the rent but there will be nothing left for anything else. The joke is that I will not be able to go in to work. The bigger joke is that I won’t have a pay cheque if I have no hours at work. The even bigger joke is me. Surely this is all a TV show somewhere and the little aliens are busting the green guts laughing at The Born Loser. But, I’m so good at it.

I thought the best description of a blog was an online scrapbook. I have revised that, it’s now a place you can talk to yourself without having to actually listen. Space to rant. I have comments turned off so I don’t have to listen to anyone. I changed my email tonight too. Perfect, don’t look back, don’t ever turn your head and risk falling twice.

" New Celestial Computer V!rus3s Detected "

” New Celestial Computer V!rus3s Detected “

While the Hale-Bopp comet may not have any spaceships in its tail, it apparently has released several new celestial computer v!ruses into our galaxy. Initial reports indicate 12 such v!ruses have been detected. The following is a listing of the new v!ruses and their attributes:

The ARIES v!rus continuously creates new *.ini files, and repeatedly reboots your computer to initiate them.

The TAURUS v!rus automatically backs-up all files on your hard drive and prevents you from ever deleting any information or files.

The GEMINI v!rus opens any available communication software, logs on to the internet, and uses your web-browser to search for gossip about celebrities and politicians, starting a new search every 2 minutes.

The CANCER v!rus fills up your hard drive with cooking recipes, home repair tips, and old Dear Abby columns, and then installs a screen-saver that flashes 1-800 numbers for various 12-step programs across your screen.

The LEO v!rus announces its presence with a RealAudio roar (often followed by a QuickTime clip of the MGM lion if supported by your hardware) and proceeds to delete files from your hard drive to make room for the long list of computer systems it has conquered.

The VIRGO v!rus continuously eliminates any files or programs you haven’t used for a month and defrags your hard drive every time you exit a program.

The LIBRA v!rus downloads from the internet any optional features it can find for your installed software, and installs pop-ups for each new feature that describe its pros and cons and asks whether you want it installed now or later.

The SCORPIO v!rus lurks in the background, surreptitiously downloading x-rated binary files every time you surf the net (now you know the real reason web-browsers are so slow!).

The SAGITTARIUS v!rus immediately begins searching your hard drive for the one true Source code, identifying and deleting all mere object code in its path.

The CAPRICORN v!rus constructs and continually updates a database of all information on your hard drive searchable by file name, creation date, file size, author’s name (and last known address), subject, and Library of Congress classification code.

The AQUARIUS v!rus deletes all old versions of any software on your hard drive, and provides new wireless remote connection capability for obtaining the latest version of each program by FTP transfer.

The PISCES v!rus reconfigures your hard drive(s) to eliminate any artificial boundaries such as partitions, directories and files, and instead unites all software code in one universal string.

” Live Life Like A Computer “

If you messed up your life, you could press “Alt, Ctrl, Delete” and
start all over!

To get your daily exercise, just click on “run”!

If you needed a break from life, click on “suspend”. Hit “any key” to
continue life when ready.

To get even with the neighbors, turn up the sound blaster.

To “add/remove” someone in your life, click settings and control panel.

To improve your appearance, just adjust the display settings.

If life gets too noisy, turn off the speakers.

When you lose your car keys, click on “find”.

“Help” with the chores is just a click away.

You wouldn’t need auto insurance. You’d use your diskette to recover
from a crash.

We could click on “send” and the kids would go to bed immediately.

To feel like a new person, click on “refresh”.

Click on “close” to shut up the kids and spouse.

To undo a mistake, click on “back”.

Is your wardrobe getting old? Click “update”.

If you don’t like cleaning the litter box, click on “delete”.

Momentary Thoughts

I suppose one should actually make posts in her blog, beyond the quiz level. Some people choose to get their nose out of joint and generally look down on such things in snootiness. (It goes with the nose I guess). It’s all a slightly chaotic scrapbook to me. A blog is whatever a blog will be. Doris Day would understand.

I should be working on various things: more content for Kitschy, more content for The Internet Unplugged and writers for Tit-elation. Instead I’m spending and hunting for neopoints. If you have some to spare just take pity on my obsession and neomail me with your charity. I’m dragongrrl. I do have some really neat stuff in my shop/ gallery and I have started assembling my house. Tonight I began playing Plushie Tycoon too. I am having those poor dropouts making plushie draiks and wockys. They need to get churning them out too. If I make back the neopoints I started with I will make real neopoints to spend on more goodies for my home and garden. Furthering my obsession. I know it’s all worthless. I’m not completely lost.

I am feeling better, gave the cold back to some other shopper. Do I really hope so? I’m not sure I’m sure but it is a wishful momentary thought.

After the Blackout

I’m back. The power is still on. We seemed to be the last area to get power back today. Some had it before morning even. But for us it went off around 4 in the afternoon and came back shortly before 4 the next afternoon.

No doubt there are more dramatic and riveting accounts than mine. We were ok. No dead fish in the aquarium (no aquarium here). No washing machine stopped mid-load and left full of mouldering clothes. No freezer full of $1,000 of meat, going bad. I have heard others talking about each of those situations. For me it was not being able to wash or use the computer to communicate. Of course I missed playing games too but mostly I kept thinking of how I’d like to check all this out on the Internet and find out what was happening and when it would be fixed. Here I am now and I’m just doddering around really. Funny how that seems to work.