Inside every older person is a younger person wondering what the hell happened.
— anonymous

Midlife — when you decide not to kill yourself because you realize you are going to die anyway.
— anonymous

Everyone wants to be appreciated, so if you appreciate someone, don’t keep it a secret.
— Mary Kay Ash (1915 – 2001), founder, Mary Kay Cosmetics

If we listened to our intellect, we’d never have a love affair. We’d never have a friendship. We’d never go into business because we’d be cynical. Well that’s nonsense. You’ve got to jump off cliffs all the time and build your wings on the way down.
— Ray Bradbury

I don’t wait for moods. You accomplish nothing if you do that. Your mind must know it has got to get down to earth.
— Pearl S. Buck

Painting from nature is not copying the object; it is realizing one’s sensations.
— Paul Cezanne

The difference between fiction and reality? Fiction has to make sense.
— Tom Clancy (1947 –), author

We make a living by what we get, but we make a life by what we give.
— Winston Churchill

Good artists borrow; great artists steal.
— Salvador Dali

To laugh often and much; to win the respect of intelligent people and the affection of children; to earn the appreciation of honest critics and endure the betrayal of false friends; to appreciate beauty, to find the best in others; to leave the world a little better; whether by a healthy child, a garden patch or a redeemed social condition; to know even one life has breathed easier because you have lived. This is the meaning of success.
— Ralph Waldo Emerson

Spaceship Earth: The problem for the passengers is that there is no manual to identify all the parts, and no instructions on how to operate the spaceship.
— Richard Buckminster Fuller (1895 – 1983), inventor

The problem is never how to get new, innovative thoughts into your mind, but how to get old ones out.
— Dee Hock, Founder of Visa

We’re flooding people with information. We need to feed it through a processor. A human must turn information into intelligence or knowledge. We’ve tended to forget that no computer will ever ask a new question.
— Rear Admiral Grace Murray Hopper

You don’t have to see the whole staircase, just take the first step.
— Martin Luther King, Jr. (1929 – 1968)

When two people love each other,
they don’t look at each other,
they look in the same direction.
— Ginger Rogers (1911 – 1995), actress and dancer

Politicians never accuse you of ‘greed’ for wanting other people’s money, only for wanting to keep your own money.
— Joseph Sobran

Originality does not consist in saying what no one has ever said before, but in saying exactly what you think yourself.
— James Stephen

Every so often, I like to go to the window, look up, and smile for a satellite picture.
— Steven Wright

Time Travel

If you could invent (or borrow one already invented) a time machine where would you go? Would you choose to stay or just do the tourist/ site seeing stuff and come back?

For practical reasons I can’t see myself as more than a tourist in the past. I think I’d die off pretty quick without asthma and allergy medications which I have here. Not that I’m dependent on them but I wouldn’t want to be totally without them.

But, what if you went into the future, the vast unknown. Well, no one knows, do we? I think that would be more interesting. If I had a time machine I would want to look ahead and see everything I’ll be missing by being dead.

I would not want to live forever, a husk of a woman just clinging to life like some parasite, but I’d love to know what comes along. What inventions are created and what life will become for people in time.

Signs of Seduction


The Sharing of Stimuli: Sagittarius is best tempted by the spice of life — variety. What made the sparks fly on your first encounter probably won’t get the same heated reaction the next time around. Most likely the exact opposite will be the key to red-hot romance. If you want to keep your Archer from wandering, you’ll need to keep him or her guessing.

Seduction Mantra: Routine is for robots.

You Know It’s Working When: A Sagittarius shows his or her interest by actually sticking around till the end of the night — or the next morning. Archers are not the most soft-hearted creatures of the zodiac, but once under your spell look out for these clues: flustered behavior, stuttering speech, severe blushing and serious eye contact.

What’s in a Name?

You can be very romantic and attached to the glamour of love. Having a partner is of paramount importance to you. You are free in your expression of love and are willing to take chances, as well as try new sexual experiences and partners, provided it’s all in good taste. Brains turn you on. You must feel that your partner is intellectually stimulating, otherwise you will find it difficult to sustain the relationship. You require loving, cuddling, wining and dining to know that you’re being appreciated.

A Collection of Quotes

There’s this idea that if you take your clothes off, somehow you must have loose morals. There’s still a negative attitude in our society towards women who use a strength that’s inherent – their femininity – in any way that might be considered seductive. – Demi Moore

I’ve been called many names like perfectionist, difficult and obsessive. I think it takes obsession, takes searching for the details for any artist to be good. – Barbra Streisand

To have ego means to believe in your own strength. And to also be open to other people’s views. It is to be open, not closed. So, yes, my ego is big, but it’s also very small in some areas. My ego is responsible for my doing what I do – bad or good. – Barbra Streisand

Men are allowed to have passion and commitment for their work… a woman is allowed that feeling for a man, but not her work. – Barbra Streisand

Bitches. It’s a very male-chauvinist word. I resent it deeply. A person who’s a bitch would seem to be mean for no reason. I’m not a mean person. Maybe I’m rude without being aware of it – that’s possible. – Barbra Streisand

I’ve considered having my nose fixed. But I didn’t trust anyone enough. If I could do it myself with a mirror… – Barbra Streisand

There’s something about death that is comforting. The thought that you could die tomorrow frees you to appreciate your life now. – Angelina Jolie

We come to love not by finding the perfect person, but by learning to see an imperfect person perfectly. – Angelina Jolie

I don’t believe in guilt, I believe in living on impulse as long as you never intentionally hurt another person, and don’t judge people in your life. I think you should live completely free. – Angelina Jolie

I like someone who is a little crazy but coming from a good place. I think scars are sexy because it means you made a mistake that led to a mess. – Angelina Jolie

If you’re going to be alive and on this planet, you have to, like, suck the marrow out of every day and get the most out of it. – Drew Barrymore

If you’re going to go through hell… I suggest you come back learning something. – Drew Barrymore

It’s only through listening that you learn, and I never want to stop learning. – Drew Barrymore

Love is the hardest habit to break, and the most difficult to satisfy. – Drew Barrymore

There’s something liberating about not pretending. Dare to embarrass yourself. Risk. – Drew Barrymore

The Outcast Smurf

If you think about it, there is always an outcast in every story, even the Smurfs had that grumpy guy that never fit in and was kind of tolerated rather than really accepted and etc. Gilligan’s Island had Gilligan. Sure, he was the namesake of the show but he was tolerated, the group simpleton, but he was not someone who really fit in. I seem to be the Outcast Smurf often. I never quite figure out why this is and I’m not being melodramatic or whining. Just writing my own monologue as usual.

I am no longer writing for SK. Do I miss it? No. I wasn’t sure what I would be thinking or feeling at first. I put it on the back burner and dealt with all the other feelings awhile. That’s where the Outcast Smurf deal comes from. I’ve always been that odd one out. From a kid in school to the present. I’m ok with it, I don’t mind being alone. In a lot of ways it is much simpler than dealing with people and all their politics. Anyway, do you really want to keep people around who abandon you when you have tough times? No, there isn’t anything anyone can do to help but at least you would think they could not toss you overboard. Well, so what? Onwards, I have my own life raft tucked away in my handy backpack. I’ve rescued myself countless times already. I didn’t even cry more than a minute this time.

Bugger it all. You can’t say bugger it around too many people. They give you sort of shocked and funny/ odd looks. I doubt they know what ‘bugger it’ means, for me, personally. It would loosely translate as ‘be damned’ maybe. Likely you have your own phrase of choice for those times when you throw in the towel, pick up your toys and move along. Or when you know you are about a hundred dollars short on paying the rent this month and you say ‘bugger it’ and treat yourself to breakfast out for an extra $5. What huge difference will another 5 make when you’re already short 100. Just think bugger it and get on with the slow crawl to where ever you’re eventually winding up.

What else can I babble on about uselessly now….?

There is a guy at work, I don’t know if he is married or single. But, at first, I was watching him and then playing up when I knew he was listening (or able to hear). But, when he never made any approach or showed that he knew I was on the planet especially I just started not bothering. Yes, I watched him, but more as a writer than a woman looking for possibilities. Turns out that he knows my name. Sure we wear our names on our chests at work, nametags. But, he knew my name enough to use it twice now. I don’t think he could have seen my tag at the time either. For one thing he was too far away the other day. The time before I was serving a customer (I’m a cashier at a store) and the tag wasn’t very visible as I was reaching into the register for change. But, does it matter when (point A) I don’t know if he is married or single and (point B) he has not asked me out for coffee or anything else. Such is my dating history, pretty much flat lining.

I didn’t do much for St. Patrick’s Day. It was kind of nice working that day even though I was hoping I would have the day off. I always consider it a family holiday for my Grandmother and her sisters, County Cork, Ireland. I think it was Cork, she won’t be too impressed with me if I’ve remembered wrong now. She isn’t around to remind me. Anyway, it’s her day and I miss her. I wore green pants to work and Lillian brought in shamrock stickers which she passed out to everyone. She stuck one on my face which was kind of funny, a shamrock beauty mark.

I may quit the job on Sunday when I have my review. Odd timing that the review came up now. I picked up an application for Zehrs today, same job but no credit card selling. Same lifting of endless mountains of stuff. Oh how I hate stuff, cartloads of it. People just can’t know how I cringe inside as they wheel it all up. Worse only are the people who ignore me or are out right grumps. What is it like to live like that and why would they choose to be that way? Can’t they see how being pleasant is so much better in so many ways? Also, I give discounts to people who are chatty and pleasant. The others can bugger it, I don’t go out of my way for them. “You thought it was on sale, oh? Ho-hum, I guess it’s not. Do you still want it?” If only they knew that a little eye contact, a smile, a few words of social pleasantness could have gotten them somewhere. Instead they are no where, just living in the land of grumpiness where they can remain and likely will. Likely they think everyone is just like they are. You tend to find what you expect to find. I expect better and usually find it, even if I do coax it out of people. It does make the day pass by a lot faster. I will never understand those grumpers, what kind of a life is that?

Not writing for SK is kind of liberating. I had a couple of other things on the go but I let them get crowded out to be there for SK and such. Now, I can re-sort the priorities and I am even going to work on getting out an article for one of the writing magazines. There’s a worthy goal. 🙂

Also, I was in Dmoz tonight and found a site by a woman chef with kids, husband and her own business. It was a nice site, pretty graphics and recipes and a forum and other stuff I didn’t really get into looking at. But, I was thinking that here is a site and a woman I would like to interview and she might not have wanted to be interviewed as part of SK. But, now I could do something on my own. But, do I want to run a site for women? One, there are quite a lot of them out there. Two, do I want more stuff I HAVE to do? Three, what for? I think three is winning out. Yes, it would be nice but what for? Web content should have a purpose and a focus, I don’t have a tight enough grip on either of those to start taking leaping lizards all over the place. It isn’t something I will just forget about, but… I get endless ideas, ambitions and passions that I have to narrow it down to things that are actually important and workable enough. Practical too.

I found a couple of quotes tonight. The first was in a magazine I browsed while I was out. The second came from the chef’s website GirlyRose.com and I found the third myself when I went looking for more Agatha Christie quotes.

“We must be willing to get rid of the life we’ve planned, so as to have the life that is waiting for us.” – Joseph Campbell

“I like living. I have sometimes been wildly, despairingly, acutely miserable, racked with sorrow, but through it all I still know quite certainty that just to be alive is a grand thing.” – Agatha Christie

“Most successes are unhappy. That’s why they are successes – they have to reassure themselves about themselves by achieving something that the world will notice.” -Agatha Christie


“We must be willing to get rid of the life we’ve planned, so as to have the life that is waiting for us.” – Joseph Campbell

“I like living. I have sometimes been wildly, despairingly, acutely miserable, racked with sorrow, but through it all I still know quite certainty that just to be alive is a grand thing.” – Agatha Christie

“Most successes are unhappy. That’s why they are successes – they have to reassure themselves about themselves by achieving something that the world will notice.” -Agatha Christie