From Eric

Take my hand.
Let’s travel life together…
but let’s take time
to savor where we go.

We’ll measure distance,
not in miles but kisses.
We’ll pack our smiles
and leave our cares behind.

Instead of postcards,
we’ll collect embraces,
and I’ll memorize your face
on moonlit nights…

We’ll leave the road
for meadows, beaches, cafes,
and secret places
only we will know.

Life’s too short
for us to ever finish
a journey that explores
our heart’s desires,
so let’s go now…

We won’t regret
one minute
of traveling life together
hand in hand.

Alarie Tennille

Travel Life Together

Take my hand.
Let’s travel life together…
but let’s take time
to savor where we go.

We’ll measure distance,
not in miles but kisses.
We’ll pack our smiles
and leave our cares behind.

Instead of postcards,
we’ll collect embraces,
and I’ll memorize your face
on moonlit nights…

We’ll leave the road
for meadows, beaches, cafes,
and secret places
only we will know.

Life’s too short
for us to ever finish
a journey that explores
our heart’s desires,
so let’s go now…

We won’t regret
one minute
of traveling life together
hand in hand.

Alarie Tennille

Anne Morrow Lindbergh

My passport photo is one of the most remarkable photographs I have ever seen — no retouching, no shadows, no flattery — just stark me.

I believe that what a woman resents is not so much giving herself in pieces as giving herself purposelessly.

One cannot collect all the beautiful shells on the beach.

Good communication is as stimulating as black coffee, and just as hard to sleep after.

I feel we are all islands — in a common sea.

By and large, mothers and housewives are the only workers who do not have regular time off. They are the great vacationless class.

The most exhausting thing in life is being insincere.

Eric is Coming for Spring Break

Just typing this is hard. I almost feel telling people about someone new in my life is like brushing up against the curse of instant destruction. Self inflicted demolition. Spontaneous, irreconcilable combustion. Kablam!

I think I’m happy. It’s just a bit overwhelmed with the past. When I married Todd I had real, true optimism. I was sure it would be great. Whatever misgivings I had, whatever fears about the immigration process and living in another country knowing no one… all those were fairly easy to ignore. Cause I was sure of my own abilities to make things work and I was sure that people wouldn’t lie to me about their deepest feelings. Why would they?

Now, time has passed and there have been a few other relationships. Not many, none of any length and even I admit I can’t really take a cyber, virtual, long distance only relationship too seriously. Is it a real realtionship if you’ve never seen him smile, if you’ve never felt him touch you, never smelled his breath after too much garlic? These finishing touches make it real. They matter, they bring the words we pass around in email to life.

But it still hurts to have your heart ripped out and shredded, even virtually. Not so much the heart I think. More the trust and the hope you feel each time you try to start again with a new person. It takes trust and hope to try again. Is there an allotment of those which we have? When are they used up and can they be a renewable resource? I don’t know. I do feel mine are a bit misused and slightly bent out of shape and beginning to wear thin in places.

Eric is full of happiness and joy to be coming here. I’m mostly paranoid, afraid, outright gloomy. To even say “will it work” seems a bit too shiny and bright. Like the glare of the sun in your eyes driving home after work. It’s too bright. Someone needs to find a shade to pull down.

It hurts my heart. I’m like a stone statue trying to cry. I want to be happy, to be loved. But, I just can’t quite give it my full faith. At some point the glaring flaw in me will take over and this too will pass. I’ll be left, a wounded soldier, trying to hold my guts in while they slip out through the spaces between my fingers. Again.

But, some part of me is still left from that old girl. The one who thought I had enough guts, enough wit and enough creative genius and inventivness to make it work. The one who moved to another country to marry a friend. What a fool she was, I sometimes think. Why didn’t she listen to her naysaying instincts. But, I know why. I know there is hope eternal inside of me. I can’t kill it. It’s shrunken down and a bit deformed now. But it’s still there. It’s not ugly, it’s a thing of beauty. If I give it just a bit of hope and trust to grow on, it will grow.

So Eric is coming to meet me during the Spring break, March 14th he will be here. I’m going to try. I’m pitifully emotionally turbulent. Yes, I’m happy and excited. Yes, I’m trying to keep afloat and have faith. It feels a bit like a race between his visit, the impending crushing defeat I’ve come to expect and that happy, sunshine land of happily ever after I thought I’d find once upon a time.

Spirituality for the Home

– Of course the original link is 404 now, as are all sites from Geocities.

The Hearth

Folklore

For ancient cultures, the hearth was the center of the home.
It was the provider of warmth through the harsh winter months,
and also provided heat for cooking all meals. It was the
gathering place of the household.
Fire has a special attraction for all of us. Within its
smoke and flame lie the origin of many religions.
Fire, the element of transformation, causes change to occur. It can be
destructive, but through destruction comes creation.
The fire in the house was never allowed to die. It was considered
unfortunate if the household fire went out during the night.
If this occurred, hot coals would need to be borrowed from neighbors.
If the coals died while being transported home, it was an omen
that the family would have an unlucky future.

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